have you ever really danced on the edge, just hold my hand and fall…
It’s 8:40pm on a Wednesday night, usually I would be waking up from a nap in the next 15mins, showering and going out to drink with the same people to the same places, but tonight I’m realizing I’m happier being completely broke and at home. A funny thing happens when you’re finally becoming happy with the person you are, even if you are loosing your mind slowly. You become content with doing the most simplest of things; such as sitting in the house actually relaxing and taking in the peace of the night instead of out dealing with all the complete assholes that live in your town. If you can’t stand the mere presence of something/someone you distance yourself, correct? Well from now on that’s what I’m doing. I can no longer take the fakeness of this town, filled with girls with fake orange tans and bad fashion, boys with a bottle of gel and extremely large arm muscles from all the fist pumping going on. Doing so I will accomplish a lot more in life and save money to get the hell out of this vast waste land they call central New Jersey, where only the strong and passionate survive, and run far far away.
So this is my goodbye to Jersey! You and I have had a wonder past 23 years but it’s time that you and I part and go down different roads in life. I can no longer take your town with no culture or substance in life. All the same faces with the same dramas that still haven’t changed over the past 5 years. Goodbye to the town who will forever be stuck in your highschool years. Maybe one day we will meet again. But before a final goodbye I must also thank you for the passion you’ve put into me. The loving, caring and slightly fuck up family I was brought into. The few amazingly wonder friends I have gain and I know will never leave my side because they believe in me and know I have a bigger purpose in life than to stay here in this bubble. Goodbye Hamilton New Jersey make the next 3 months count!
In my ventures out of this state I hope to meet new intelligent people with a passion and purpose in life. People who want to give back to this world, hopefully making it a better place to live and learn. Individuals who have a desirer to wake up in the morning and make the best of there day, not people who choose to sleep the day away to only go out at night.
Beyond this realization I had tonight, I have also been very creative with many ideas for accessories and tee’s I hope to one day but into action with a great friend of mine! ( who I know will be reading this tomorrow morning as we’re both locked up in bootcamp staring off into the oblivion with nothing better to do!) ^. .^
It is now 9:04 and I will spend the rest of my night with my phone off and my nose in a book. Goodnight beautiful night, I hope you bring a wonderful tomorrow.
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